The goals and dreams that I have imagine about are very simple I think, but a lot of hard work to get there. The first thing is to get into the school I want to study Networking. I want to graduate and find a job. All I desire is to have a house and take care of myself with out being dependent of anybody else. Also I want to have a husband and a family of my own. Just like any girl or woman dream about. My goal is to raise my children the best way possible, because of my bad childhood I just want them to have good memories. I want to give them all they need but only some of the things they want. I want to get a good enough job so I can send my father on a long vacation, I want him to rest and spend the rest of his life doing the things he wants to do. He told me once that he would like to go to a place where the sun sets in the horizon. I really want to achieve that. I want to be happy without feeling guilty about it. I want to love my self fully and just have a healthy mind. The obstacles that I think I would face is the studying for my degree and to struggle a little bit because the language is different. Another problem would be to make my life loving somebody when I can barely love myself. Also if I do have kids I think I would be too overly protective and controlling my irrational thoughts. Even though these would be some hard problems to overcome I know that it is possible. I will have to adjust to certain situations. The change I would love to do is to make my family close to each other I would like us to have family reunions and I could take kids with my family. Now there are mostly fights and arguments. I would like to make my family closer and more united. My brother's girlfriend moved in with us she has caused drama and fights with my mother and turns my brother against us. Sometimes I feel I am living through a soup opera and I am waiting for the happy ending but sometimes I wonder if that will ever happen. I have been miserable most of my life and the thing I desire the most is to be happy and live a happy long life.
